RUDARR♥

It's been over 3 years we've been together, guys. and now, it feels like cutting my fingers to face the truth that we only have 4 months again together.
after that, we will apart from each others.

Yeah, i just can't live without them. I'm sure.
I can't imagine i must through the days without them in the future.
Feels like I wanna crying for now.
They are my everything. ♥

동해생일이다!!! (It's Donghae's Birthday!!!)

DECEMBER 09, 2009. the day that i decided as the day when i've falling in love with this guy. actually, before Dec 9, i've already fallin' love with this guy, when i saw Sorry Sorry Music Video for many times. But i don't remember the specific date. Dec 9 is the date when i had started to search anything about him, i really fallin love with him when i saw Super Junior on Tricks (sorry, i can't find the link) and Donghae Magic Show on Youtube. And that was December 9, 2009. So i had decided the "our date".

LEE DONG HAE.

Now, October 15, 2010. Today is a big day for you. 24 years Indonesia age, and 25 years old Korea age.

I'm really sad..
Because you'll still grow old and left me behind.
Because i can't give you anything on your birthday except this.
Because i haven't meet you yet until now.
Because i can't say 'Happy Birthday' and shake your hands directly.
Because maybe, you'll never read this forever and know how much i love you
Because you didn't know me at all..

But beside that,
I'm really thankful. Thanks to God, who made a perfect guy like you, and let you have a long life until 24 years.
I'm really thankful to your mother and father too. Who take care of you since you were child until you grow up.
I'm really thankful to our leader Teuk. Who always take care of you too since you were trainee. Pick you up from your highschool faithfully. Beside you all the time when you needed.
I'm really thankful to Eunhyuk. Who made you laughing and cheerful when you beside him. Always dancing with you handsomely. Never let you eating alone since you didn't like to eating alone. Take care of you and never wanna let you down.
I'm really thankful to other members. Who loves you so much more each day.
And I'm really thankful to you. Who always cheerful, and I love you just the way you are.

Your laughter is my everything..

You are super cool..

Beside singing, dancing, you're a composer. You are really multi-talented

You love kid..

You're super silly and make me laughing all the time..

Your face looks like a lost child who want to be protected..

Loving your father who already passed away with whole of your heart..

You love to open your mouth..

You love to sticking your tongue out..

Your expressions are really epic!

I don't know how to say this. You grow up. You grow old. But you'll still be my Baby Aiden Lee Donghae. There are many fish in a sea, but I just want you. The one i love so much. My love is different with the others. I can't explain it by myself. Nobody can describe how much I love you, including my own self.

I really wish all the greatest for you on your 24 birthday. Hoping you'll be always success on your career. Stay to SUPER JUNIOR faithfully with another members. Stay healthy and never get sick all the time.

(Credits: Jamilah & @angginisaa)

Love you forever, My Aiden Lee Donghae. Nothing's gonna change. ♥

#Eunhae @ 100914 Idol Sport Day

See what i told you, guys! They're really inseparable....... ^^

I have nothing to say anymore. speechless. they are always together everytime everywhere. actually, still many photos of them both together but i can't upload it =] ahhhh~ the point is, i love them so deep deep deep. too much! and i know they're also love each other, hahahaha~~ so glad to see them like this! be like this FOREVER, our Eunhae! Hwaiting!!!!^^

I ♥ EUNHAE SO MUCH
MORE THAN YOU KNOW THAT!!!!

ELF

sometimes, i feel so annoyed to be a fangirl. i want to get out from this life. i don't want to be a fangirl anymore. but i can't. i can't find the way out. nobody can help me! everyone had told me already that i should get out from this crazyness. my friends keeps telling me to leave them. but i can't get out. CANNOT. i love this life. i can't leave because i'm happy to be a fangirl.

and especially because of THEM. i can't get out from this life. stuck in this routine. loving 15 people who doesn't know me at all. adore them with seeing their photos and their video only. screaming all the time when look at their cool performance. always put their picture as our cellphone wallpaper. can't stop smiling when our bias started to singing. keep telling our friends how funny they are although they(friends) don't understand what are funny. crying when they are look with another girls that we hate so much. spending a lot of money to watch their concert, buy their CD albums or even just a magazine which put their article. and etc.

since i was young, i always love blue. i'm really do. BLUE is my favorite colour. all of my stuff is blue. and now, i've already know why i love blue so much.

Me. I love to be a fangirl. I love to loving them with all my heart. it will stay forever as long as i live. nothing is gonna changing. although that antis or whatever, although they're (fan to fan) always arguing each other, i don't listen them. i don't care what they say. i'm not shaking. will stay here, to be an ELF. i'm proud to be an ELF. forever to give a big spirit for Super Junior. holding sapphire blue balloons and lightstick, always screaming their name. screaming Park Jungsoo, Kim Heechul, Hangeng, Kim Jongwoon, Kim Youngwoon, Shin Donghee, Lee Sungmin, Lee Hyukjae, Lee Donghae, Kim Kibum, Kim Ryeowook, Cho Kyuhyun, in every part of their songs. with 2 another wonderful boys, Zhoumi and Henry Lau. i love them in every way.

Super Junior, i'm sorry... i love you all. too much. even, i feel so sad if you have a girlfriend. i feel so angry and wanna crying when i see you with another girl. although i know it's your right. but i can't help it.. Sorry.

PS: I'm really crying when i read this. just click at this.

RIP my Radhina...

Today, i went to my friend's place. Radhina Silviani. my Mezzo friend at SUANSA. it feels like, i miss her so much. i just can send a pray for her in front of her gravestone. and then i'm going to cry. close my eyes, and suddenly it feels like i got a flashback to 1st and 2nd June. when i had got the text message about her death. my heart beating. and everyone gathered at her home that night. the ambulans was came behind my car. and Radhin was in there. that was rainy heavily. everybody's crying and hugged each other. including me. at 2nd June, we went to her funeral. i saw her in the grave. then, my chest feels heavy. the tears came out already. sad... that's all still clear in my memories. i still can remember at all. i can't help this tears to come out.

and today, Sept 11 2010, i know you'll rest in peace at your place there. i just wanna say i miss you, Radhin. i miss to see you came late at practice every saturday. i miss to see you always want to in front of camera when we take a pictures. all i can do is just pray here for you. we love you. forever..

I LOVE THEM SFM - EUNHAE

Guys, seriously.. Just so you know. I'm really in love now. But i'm in love with an idol. Donghae and Eunhyuk. They're really made my day into colorful. i think maybe i can't live without them. they are my mood-buster. when i think about them, everything's gonna be alright suddenly and i smile. errrgh, i don't know why is it happen. it shouldn't happen, right? But i love them surely. They're not replaceable. And they're inseparable in my heart.

When someone is close with them, i feel sad. My mood suddenly down down down. Break down and cry. Horrible. Heartbreaking. Oh, i don't know again. I just love them, but it shouldn't happen. I know i know i know... i love them not just because their handsomeness or their style. But i love them also because their personality, they made me laugh easily everytime i see them, and they're talented.

But who i love the most is LEE DONGHAE. Oh, no.. I just speechless about him. He has a wistful eye that makes people immadiately wants to hug him when they're seen it. he loves to sticking his tongue out, biting his lower lip, and even he loves to open his mouth everytime. That's cute, right? I love him more than anything. i can laugh, angry, disappointed, or maybe cry because him. I don't know when i started crazy like this. But that's true.
I love him. Not as a fan to their idol.

you can 'click' the picture if it doesn't looks clear.

Really Gonna Miss Today :')

Hai blogger. hahahaha gue lagi bahagia banget nih. hari ini gue seneeeeeeeeng banget. gara gara anak anak kelas gue. hahaha sumpah ya, ada anak kelas gue namanya Rifqy. gila ye sumpah asal lo tau nih anak kocak banget whahahaha. apalagi kalo udah digabung sama temen gue yang namanya Ria. aduh itu tuh udah gak bisa dibendung lagi deh ya kocaknya hahaha. coba lo semua kenalan deh sama mereka tuh. hari hari lo cerah langsung! hahahah.

hari ini tuh, gue Ria Arsya Jenny Tirto ama Rifqy ngomongin gitu pergi buat acara perpisahan XI IPS 1. mikirin deh tuh kan mau nginep dimana. kan transport insya Allah udah fix kan ya ada beberapa mobil pribadi dari anak anak. yang jadi driver tuh Tirto Fahmi Ais atau gak Rio. nah terus gue bilang kan ya, "Yaudah lah, kita gak usah pake penginapan. Kita tidurnya di mobil aja" nah ada beberapa yang setuju. tapi katanya, gimana cara tidur di mobil dempet dempetan, udah gitu kita kan nyampur cewek cowok. gila bisa jadi apaan. udah gitu juga dipikirin, kalo gak ada penginapan, terus mandi nya gimana. hahahaha. mulai deh darisitu muncul ide ide konyol dan goblok. si Rifqy lah bilang, mandi nya di pom bensin. sabun nya, 1 sabun di potong2 dibagi 8. hahahaa. aduh sumpah ya kocak banget. itu tuh gue, Ria, Arsya, Tirto, Rifqy, udah ngakak sengakak ngakak nya tau gak. si Rifqy tuh nyeletuk muluuuuuu gak ada abisnya. celetukan nya tuh kocak lagi ngomongnya! susah deh nyeritainnya kalo gak liat.. yang jelas itu kocak banget WAHAHAHAHAHA :D

aduuuuh gue berdoa banget semoga jalan jalan nya XI IPS 1 ini bisa jadi dengan sukses. anak anak kelas pada ikut semua. perjalanan nya seru. banyak kejadian yang gak terlupakan! hahahaha. soalnya gue bakal kangen banget sama IPS 1. apalagi kalo saat saat kayak gini. ngakak ngakak bareng bareng. aaaaaaa pokoknya I LOVE YOU XI IPS 1, gue gak nyesel masuk kelas ini!!! :D

not bad :D

hari ini gak terlalu berkesan nih. hari pertama masuk lagi setelah liburan seminggu lebih. fuuuuh. gaseru ah! hahahaah gue maunya ada apa kek ya gitu yang mengesankan. ya udah lah gapapa. aduh gue jadi kepikiran nih senin depan udah ujian blok 2. gue gak bisa santai santai nih. ini udah semester 2. udah mau kenaikan kelas. aaaaaaaaah. yasudahlah, sebenernya gue gatau mau ngepost apa kali ini. cuma gue pengen ngepost aja hahahaha. bye bye blogger ;)

I Don't Wanna Say Goodbye to Holiday!

liburan....... aduh kata kata itu tuh udah kayak surga dunia banget ya. betapa bahagia nya gue kalo udah liburan. udah seminggu ini gue libur ya kan. gara gara kakak kakak kelas XII tersayang itu lagi pada Ujian Nasional. jadi anak anak kelas XI pada libur. aaaah asik banget gue sendirian dirumah. kerjaan nya cuma online, pagi pagi cuma bangun, makan, terus buka laptop, buka youtube, gak ada yang ganggu. tenaaaaaang. hahahahaha. tiap hari gue buka youtube mulu deh ngeKOR(nge-Korea maksudnya, sebutan dari Kak Niken & Izhar). buka bukain Super Junior pastinyaaaaaa hahahaha :D

seminggu ini gue nontonin fancam fancam bekas Super Show yang kemaren kemaren. yang di Shanghai sama di Malaysia. ngeliatin Eunhae Moments yang ada. dan yang paling gue incer adalah Angela!!! hahahahahaha, ya ampun kalian tuh harus banget liat Super Show Angela. itu adalah lucu bangeeeeet. hahaha Eunhae sayangkuuuuuu. terus gue ketemu lagi ada fancam Eunhae Moments di Shanghai kemaren pas nyanyi Carnival. astagaaaaaa lucu banget! silahkan kalian lihat sendiri betapa klop nya mereka! silahkan itu Angela dan Carnival kalian klik ;D

kalo nggak buka Super Junior, gue nonton SHINee Hello Baby. udah pada nonton itu belom, blogger? itu lucu banget loooooooh. ah apalagi Baby Yoogeun. ya ampuuuun gila tuh anak kecil kecil lucu bangeeet. berasa mau gue culik terus gue bawa ke Indonesia buat di jadiin anak gue! hahahah. jadi tuh SHINee harus jadi appa(ayah) Yoogeun di acara ini. dan ya ampun lucu banget gue ga tahan nontonnya. mana kocak banget lagi SHINee suka ngelawak. tapi walaupun SHINee lucu, tetep aja gue pasti lebih ngakak kalo misalnya ada Super Junior Hello Baby. gilaaaaaaaa, bisa bayangin gak sih bisa gila gue nontonnya gara gara kebanyakan ngakak!! hahahahaa.

ah gue gatau lagi lah mau ngomong apa. cuma mau cerita cerita aja tentang liburan gue walaupun dirumah doang tapi tetep aja gue bahagia gara gara selalu ditemenin sama Super Junior. hahahahahaha. tapi sekarang liburan udah mau abiiiiis. sekarang udah hari Sabtu. jadi, hari libur gue tinggal Minggu, ama Senin. YAK SELAMAT! let's say goodbye to holiday. siap deh gue berjuang lagi bersama buku buku pelajaran! aaaaaah gila kembali lagi ke kehidupan sebenernya! kehidupan sekolah yang sangat membosankan. ah sudah lah, gue ikhlas aja. siapa tau kalo ikhlas bisa lebih asik ngejalanin nya. Amiiiiin :D

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