#Eunhae @ 100914 Idol Sport Day

See what i told you, guys! They're really inseparable....... ^^

I have nothing to say anymore. speechless. they are always together everytime everywhere. actually, still many photos of them both together but i can't upload it =] ahhhh~ the point is, i love them so deep deep deep. too much! and i know they're also love each other, hahahaha~~ so glad to see them like this! be like this FOREVER, our Eunhae! Hwaiting!!!!^^

I ♥ EUNHAE SO MUCH
MORE THAN YOU KNOW THAT!!!!

ELF

sometimes, i feel so annoyed to be a fangirl. i want to get out from this life. i don't want to be a fangirl anymore. but i can't. i can't find the way out. nobody can help me! everyone had told me already that i should get out from this crazyness. my friends keeps telling me to leave them. but i can't get out. CANNOT. i love this life. i can't leave because i'm happy to be a fangirl.

and especially because of THEM. i can't get out from this life. stuck in this routine. loving 15 people who doesn't know me at all. adore them with seeing their photos and their video only. screaming all the time when look at their cool performance. always put their picture as our cellphone wallpaper. can't stop smiling when our bias started to singing. keep telling our friends how funny they are although they(friends) don't understand what are funny. crying when they are look with another girls that we hate so much. spending a lot of money to watch their concert, buy their CD albums or even just a magazine which put their article. and etc.

since i was young, i always love blue. i'm really do. BLUE is my favorite colour. all of my stuff is blue. and now, i've already know why i love blue so much.

Me. I love to be a fangirl. I love to loving them with all my heart. it will stay forever as long as i live. nothing is gonna changing. although that antis or whatever, although they're (fan to fan) always arguing each other, i don't listen them. i don't care what they say. i'm not shaking. will stay here, to be an ELF. i'm proud to be an ELF. forever to give a big spirit for Super Junior. holding sapphire blue balloons and lightstick, always screaming their name. screaming Park Jungsoo, Kim Heechul, Hangeng, Kim Jongwoon, Kim Youngwoon, Shin Donghee, Lee Sungmin, Lee Hyukjae, Lee Donghae, Kim Kibum, Kim Ryeowook, Cho Kyuhyun, in every part of their songs. with 2 another wonderful boys, Zhoumi and Henry Lau. i love them in every way.

Super Junior, i'm sorry... i love you all. too much. even, i feel so sad if you have a girlfriend. i feel so angry and wanna crying when i see you with another girl. although i know it's your right. but i can't help it.. Sorry.

PS: I'm really crying when i read this. just click at this.

RIP my Radhina...

Today, i went to my friend's place. Radhina Silviani. my Mezzo friend at SUANSA. it feels like, i miss her so much. i just can send a pray for her in front of her gravestone. and then i'm going to cry. close my eyes, and suddenly it feels like i got a flashback to 1st and 2nd June. when i had got the text message about her death. my heart beating. and everyone gathered at her home that night. the ambulans was came behind my car. and Radhin was in there. that was rainy heavily. everybody's crying and hugged each other. including me. at 2nd June, we went to her funeral. i saw her in the grave. then, my chest feels heavy. the tears came out already. sad... that's all still clear in my memories. i still can remember at all. i can't help this tears to come out.

and today, Sept 11 2010, i know you'll rest in peace at your place there. i just wanna say i miss you, Radhin. i miss to see you came late at practice every saturday. i miss to see you always want to in front of camera when we take a pictures. all i can do is just pray here for you. we love you. forever..

I LOVE THEM SFM - EUNHAE

Guys, seriously.. Just so you know. I'm really in love now. But i'm in love with an idol. Donghae and Eunhyuk. They're really made my day into colorful. i think maybe i can't live without them. they are my mood-buster. when i think about them, everything's gonna be alright suddenly and i smile. errrgh, i don't know why is it happen. it shouldn't happen, right? But i love them surely. They're not replaceable. And they're inseparable in my heart.

When someone is close with them, i feel sad. My mood suddenly down down down. Break down and cry. Horrible. Heartbreaking. Oh, i don't know again. I just love them, but it shouldn't happen. I know i know i know... i love them not just because their handsomeness or their style. But i love them also because their personality, they made me laugh easily everytime i see them, and they're talented.

But who i love the most is LEE DONGHAE. Oh, no.. I just speechless about him. He has a wistful eye that makes people immadiately wants to hug him when they're seen it. he loves to sticking his tongue out, biting his lower lip, and even he loves to open his mouth everytime. That's cute, right? I love him more than anything. i can laugh, angry, disappointed, or maybe cry because him. I don't know when i started crazy like this. But that's true.
I love him. Not as a fan to their idol.

you can 'click' the picture if it doesn't looks clear.